12. May 2005 · Comments Off on How Frustrating! · Categories: imported, Ramble

I’m working on a piece I’ve done before. It was, in fact, only a couple of years ago. I remembered one “fear solo” and that was it. Now I’m going through the work again because I’ll be playing it in less than a month (news on this later), and it all seems more difficult.

I don’t get it! Did my playing get worse, or am I crazy?

Or both?

Maybe if I were happier with my reeds …? They are misbehaving. They are deciding to rebel. I’m angry at them, but I still have to be kind. I feel like bashing them against a wall. But nooo … they get to live.

Stupid reeds.

What I need to do is take a step back, of course. (“Ms. Mitchell, step away from the reeds.”)

So that’s what I’ll do.

When I come back I trust the reeds will be on their best behavior (which isn’t saying a whole lot I suppose), and maybe my fingers will begin to remember what they are supposed to do.

It can happen!

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