04. February 2008 · Comments Off on Getting More Difficult … · Categories: Ramble

I don’t know about other musicians, but I have this problem: the first rehearsal is usually the easiest! Even with operas I’ve played before. I’m not sure why, but as I go along, things get more and more difficult. Maybe it’s because I know what I’m in for, but I’ve played a lot of operas and this happens even with something I’ve done in the past. Maybe it’s just because I lose a bit of the first rehearsal energy. Maybe it’s because I’m remembering just how hard some licks are. Or maybe I’m just crazy.

Does anyone else have this problem? Not the crazy part—I know I just have this special “crazy issue” going on—but what about the getting more difficult thing …?)

By the time I get to opening night the opera is often at about its most difficult. Then things gradually get easier again. By the end I am often sailing along rather comfortably. Until right before the last performance, that is. Then the, “This is your last show. I sure hope you don’t blow it but you probably will. Oh you are going to be so embarrassed! Who do you think you are? Why are you even in this business?” voice starts screaming away. Go figure.

Tonight was okay, but I fear my oboe has a slight leak somewhere because it just feels uncomfortable.

Then again, as things get more difficult, I imagine more and more problems with the instrument and reeds.

Is this a great way to go insane or what?

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