Two sets ago, as readers here know, I played the English horn with Symphony Silicon Valley in Symphony No. 9 by Dvorak (From New World) as well as Berlioz’s Roman Carnival Overture. It was one of the few times I was actually very satisfied with my playing (I am, I think, my harshest critic). I had fun. I played musically. Things just felt right. (Yeah, I go by how I feel much of the time.)
And then it was over.
Most of us then go through that withdrawal period. I did a wee bit, but of course I did have more work right after that, so there wasn’t all that much time for it. The concerts were over, and that was that.
Last week I was surprised at a rehearsal. I was handed a letter that had been sent to the symphony office. It was a lovely letter, complimenting my English horn playing at that former concert.
My first fan letter! No doubt my last as well. But how wonderful it was to get that encouragement. So many musicians I know are somewhat insecure. We think we are playing well, but unless a conductor or some of our colleagues say something we begin to doubt ourselves.
Hmmm. Or maybe I’m the only one with that problem.
In any case, the letter was so wonderful to receive, and you can bet I’ll be saving it! 🙂