30. August 2012 · Comments Off · Categories: Ramble

I was informed by a fellow musician, and then had it verified later on by several others, that I was hired to do a particular job only because of some sort of union grievance that forced the contractor to hire me. It had nothing to do with my playing. This also meant, of course, that someone else had expected to get the job and didn’t, which made me feel rather guilty even while I was grateful for the income.

There’s something humiliating about getting a job that way.

Aside from my two tenured positions, I consider every job a gift. I work very hard at expecting nothing so that these gifts truly are just that and nothing more. But I’m still feeling kind of yucky about this particular job now.

Added Note:
How funny that I just read this quote:
“Humility does not make you better than anyone, but makes you different from many.”

And then it hit me, of course, that I am not really experiencing humility. Humility would go unmentioned by a truly humble person. I’m experiencing embarrassment or humiliation. Humiliation is not humility. So there you go. Another lesson for yours truly.

Never too old for another lesson!

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