14. May 2006 · Comments Off on YES! · Categories: imported, Ramble

Nailed it.

I don’t often say that—ask my music pals and you’ll know it’s true! I always find something to point out that I disliked about what I did. But, well, I was happy with my work today. How ’bout that?

The really funny thing, too, is that after all my turmoil last night and today a fellow musician came up to tell me her husband (a former San Francisco Symphony player) had only compliments about what I did last night. I was close to telling her, “But I didn’t play perfectly,” but I managed to keep my big mouth shut.

After the concert we waited for the hall to clear out and refill, and then we played Beethoven for (and with) the doctor who hired us to do so. There was a pretty good audience, and they took pictures before and after the event. This is normally a no-no, but for a special event I think it’s perfectly fine. While it wasn’t a flawless performance (it’s not an easy work to conduct!) it all went fine. Pam (principal oboist) was commenting on the situation; one can come a conduct and manage okay. But could someone who isn’t an oboist pay to sit in one of our chairs? Or any chair in the orchestra for that matter. So … well … what does that say about the conductor “chair”? Huh? Huh? 😉

Just goofing off … I do realize that conducting isn’t easy and takes great talent. (I have no talent for conducting and I will demonstrate that clearly to the San Jose Youth Symphony tomorrow when I coach the woodwind section!

So now it’s done. No more playing work. Nothing until the first opera rehearsal on August 30th. Is that scary? I think so.

14. May 2006 · Comments Off on It Would Be So Fun … · Categories: imported, Ramble

to be here right now:


Just thinking of a cool Mother’s Day kind of thing to do.

But a concert calls. Alas, I will have to get to the ballpark another day.

I hope!

This is the final concert of my season. No more Opera San Jose and no more Symphony Silicon Valley so I’m feeling a bit sad. Oh to have summer work lined up! Now I deal with less income and more free time. I do need some time, but I’d gladly trade it for some playing jobs; not playing until September is a challenge.

A number of my colleagues move to unemployment income now, but I continue to teach privately (and yes, I report all my teaching income) so I can’t do that. Sometimes I wonder if I’d actually “earn” more if I told the students to take the summer off. It would be interesting to see what I’d bring in for doing nothing. Hmmm.

Naw, I won’t do that. Besides, UCSC actually pays us over the twelve months, so I’m not sure it would be legal.

Concert at 2:30. No, I’m not leaving yet. Symphony Silicon Valley has pre-concert talks in the hall, so we aren’t allowed to warm up until 2:00 anyway. I’m not into “hurry up and wait” after I arrive there. And I (happily) live about seven minutes from the hall.

Ramble, ramble … yeah … it’s that kind of day. 🙂

14. May 2006 · Comments Off on MQOD · Categories: imported, Quotes

There’s always stress involved in any genre or art form, there’s always going to be a struggle. If there’s no struggle, you wouldn’t do anything. What are you going do? Retire?

-Van Morrison

14. May 2006 · 1 comment · Categories: imported, Links

Sometimes I should really wait until I’m finished with a concert series before I read any reviews. Reading about my imperfections before the second concert kind of adds stress to the old body.

That’s show biz, eh?

14. May 2006 · Comments Off on Home (Finally) · Categories: imported, Ramble

So I just walked in the door. Yes, it’s late (early). But there you go.

Actually I had promised a friend a drink because she gave up smoking. She has, in fact, gone five months without a cigarette. I’m so happy for her … and I hope she’s proud of herself. Having never been a smoker I don’t know what it’s like to give up something like that, but I do know it’s difficult, just from what everyone tells me.

The Concert went well, I think. But right after I’m never in the best of shape, so it’s hard to be objective about it. I only go over what I should do better. That’s how this brain of mine works. It’s the old “carrot in front of the nose” thing for me; perfection is never achieved, only desired. I believe I’ll keep silent on most things for now (but let me just say that I’m ticked off about two notes, and playing the second oboe AND the EH part is just plain rough; I wonder what they do in SF?) and prepare for the final concert of the season. I did think, though, that Paul Polivnick was wonderful with the Berlioz. (Debussy too, for that matter, but that piece isn’t the challenge that the Berlioz is.) Every time I perform Symphonie fantastique I fall in love with the work all over again.

Tomorrow—make that today! is a long day; we play the concert again and then we play Beethoven’s Fifth for another event. Really. So I know I’ll be a bit weary when I’m done. But it’s all great music, so I’m happy about that!

It’s also Mother’s Day. My two children who live (too far) away from me sent me flowers. Can you imagine? I was shocked and touched and just so happy. I love flowers! I love my kids! Jameson is planning on taking me out to breakfast this morning. Awwww. What wonderful children I have! Being a mom is really a tremendous blessing. So Happy Mother’s Day to all you moms out there!