18. May 2010 · Comments Off on Good Days, Bad Days · Categories: Hearing, Ramble

Yesterday was one bad day. It was so bad, in fact, that I thought about canning this blog.

Yep. Really.

I know, I know, it’s doubtful that I could really do it. It would be kind of like me suggesting I stop eating chocolate, you know? But I was feeling rotten. My vision was bad. My ear was a mess. The vertigo was hounding me. My back hurt so horribly I couldn’t stand up after going out to shop for a very short time. And I thought, “Why am I blogging? It’s too all about me. It’s so self-absorbed. It’s narcissistic. I have nothing more to say anyway.”

Yeah. I was that bummed.

I’m wondering if my “post concert hangover” will be this way from here on out. Because maybe that’s what I had. Today I’m much much better.


With all the craziness of my vertigo and my ear, I am still thankful.

I am thankful that the place I am most comfortable is sitting in the middle of an orchestra. (Honestly … my ear doesn’t bother me. I’m not dizzy at all. I feel normal!) I’m thankful that I can still play, and that I can still take great joy in it. I am thankful that having ear issues hasn’t taken my career away. (I’m quite hesitantly thankful that I think I’m playing just fine; I will always wonder about that, of course!) I am thankful that I continue to teach wonderful students and enjoy watching them grow in their musical abilities, both at home and at UCSC.

I’m not sure I would have said any of this yesterday though. And I’m sorry for that. So I’m writing it here now, and the next time I’m feeling low I’ll have to re-read this. It’s a good reminder. I have so much to be thankful for, and a little “ear-itis” isn’t gonna take me down. So there.

So I’ll continue to be my self-absorbed, narcissistic, goofy old self.

You knew that already though, didn’t you? Some things never change.

18. May 2010 · Comments Off on Read Online · Categories: Huh?, Read Online

Mozart, widely regarded as one of the greatest classical composers of all time, wrote his first symphony at age eight and was dead by the age of 35. Schubert also died when he was 31, while Chopin famously didn’t live past the age of 39. Moreover, the phenomenon of the castrato in classical music in the 1700s shows that young people haven’t just been interested in classical music throughout the years – they’ve practically been canonised as part of a classical music tradition that, although lost, is not forgotten.

18. May 2010 · Comments Off on Lunch & Squish! · Categories: Videos

I just ate lunch. I do love it.

Fun, eh? But the one below? Well … this just made my day. I was feeling somewhat low, and for some reason this helped.

Part of it is that I’m a fan of goofy musical theater. These folks understand the form … hah!

18. May 2010 · Comments Off on TQOD · Categories: TQOD

I can hear someone playing #StarWars on an oboe in the quad right now.. Not the best background music to a lecture. Ima fall asleep asap