All morning long I had been feeling anxious. I couldn’t figure out what was up: I have no rehearsals or performances this week, so nothing to stress about when it comes to work. Today is my day off, and I was spending it getting a few tasks done and taking a nice long (8 mile!) walk. Still, I just felt as if I’d forgotten something or left something unfinished. Then later today a friend asked me how I was feeling since I’d had that bout of what I can only assume was food poisoning.
Ah-hah! That helped me figure it all out.
I am feeling anxious because I didn’t finish a job! Playing two rehearsals but no performance left me with this feeling of having left something undone.
I can tell you it’s not a good feeling.
Getting back to rehearsals and performances next week will probably be very good for my well-being. I needed closure and never got it. It will be good to move on.
